Should I be afraid to fall? Somedays sometimes I can almost kind of feel my brain coming back online. Sometimes I think I kind of want to be sober. I know that if I relapse I will do so spectacularly. But I’m starting to really like Montana. Listening to Pink Floyd more nowadays. And it is probably a good sign. I am not too afraid to relapse whenever I do, because I know that it will be all part of my story. At the same time, I am a little afraid to relapse. I want to get my life together a little. I hope I can make it work. I know I can; it's just a matter of actually doing it. It’s always a matter of actually doing it.